SWIM har zolpidem utskrivet och det har fungerat fantastiskt bra som sömnmedel. SWIM har varit väldigt noggrann med att endast ta det när det absolut behövs, och aldrig mer än 10 mg.
Men igårkväll fick SWIM för sig att det skulle vara ett väldigt bra experiment att ta 10 mg extra, för att se om han kunde skriva normalt i ett text-edit dokument (undvek medvetet facebook då SWIM har hört på tok för många historier). Denna ide uppstod efter att han väntade en kvart med att gå och lägga sig på grund av att han behövde ordna lite saker inför morgondagen. DO NOT DO THIS!!
Nu tror SWIM att han undvikt några uppenbara katastrofer, men när han vaknade var hans rum om-möblerat och bilder samt videos på väggar, tak och säng hade oförklarligt dykt upp på SWIMs telefon. Efter att han anat det värsta upptäckte han förstås att paketet var tomt. Tomten hade helt klart haft vägarna förbi denna natt.
För den som är intresserad lyckades SWIM dokumentera upplevelsen. En aning förundrad över hur begripligt språket/stavningen faktiskt var. Detta är ej redigerat minus ett namn for the sake of privacy.
"Stilnoct
Let's see how my typing is affected by 20 mg's. 10 + 10 (30 minutes later)
So far, so good. I have to think a lot before i actually manage to type i. Nothing spectacular so far yet. Visuals appear if i stare at something long enough. Maybe 20 mgs may have been too much. I don't feel all that good about doing this. No more of this until next week! I need to get my circadian rhythm back to 22 pm bedtime before i even begin to use them again. And when i do, i take them when everything else is done, just before i close my eyes. When i take them earlier, any hint of hallucinations will keep me up, and makes me want to take more. Such was this case.
When using this in a purely recreational manner, the maximum dose will be 20 mg. Never more.
Those other 10 are beginning to come on now. The first 2 i took at 12:00. The second two at around 12:30. Finger coordination is not as good as it normally is.
12:50
Time is passing by very quickly. I must still stare att something for some time before it begins to move, but sometimes it does, heavily.
I feel i want a snus. Not a good time for that. But eh… why not. Maybe it potentiates the effect or something. This seems like quite the task now.
12:54
Yeah, now it's definitely happening. Things contort more now, and in less time.
1:00 - It feels as if my bed is moving. Looks so too, a little bit. My ability to think is greatly reduced. Also starting to hear those classic Stilnoct-voices.
Everything in the room comes alive in a minor way. I was looking at my microwave oven and it briefly got the character of a human. A female. This room has different kingdoms, since things come alive. These letters i write appear as if they are slightly closer or further away than they normally are - added/distorted depth!
1:07 - Hearing the voices. Wondering if i should let them talk, or if i should listen to music instead. But what music? My hair sort of freaks me out. I will observe three kingdoms, and this, five minutes each, one set with music (Purosurpo), one without. The first without. As i'm writing this, i feel like i'm not entirely alone in here.
For the sake of this experiment, i will take two more around 1:30). This is my one exception. I'm having a hard time walking. God help me this night, let me not slip away. I SHALL NOT LEAVE THIS ROOM tonight! 30 mg is in me. This could end in disaster. Let the reasoning brain still funtion! Sophia, come forth!
1 19 - feeling very hypnotic. Drugged.
Here come 5 minute observations with or without music
40 + .
with music-
It seems we have emptied one of the three. And took 10 from the last one. These will be for experimentation, 20mg at a time, at special occasions
I have taken a total 0f 70 mg i think, over a few hours. Just popped the last two. I feel very dysfunctional. The final one will be for a next weekend experiment, all 20 at once. The next pack i get will be purely, strickly as ordained.
It will be interesting to read this in the morning. Larger doses do not seem to increase visals - i think they peak at 20. When taken all at once, on an empty stomach. And to think, this could have been avoided by just going to sleep. I will have to pay the price and wait for a month until i pick up my next one.
I take em all. Stilnoct free to the end of march. Until then will work heavily on militant sleep schedule, preceeded by an hour of reading.
Now, after 90 mg, let us observe the effects.
3:40 - experience begins
The thing below the fan, connected to it, is swinging, and moving. Mostly when you are not looking at it directly.
The wall in front of me is doing strange things. It expands and breathes and shifts, but, stranger yet, it creates a layer coming closer to my eyes… It's like a net.
Feeling of things moving around, like my comupter, or bed. But it hasn't gotten to that madness-peak. This might be good!
This was a stupid decision. Did not at all get the visual mayhem i had expected. Now i have to wait for a month and a half to get my next pack, which will be used as ordained 100%
The third one the same, but maybe with a minor exception or two. Ugh… I thought i could handle these, but at least i didn't do anything stupid, other than eating them all."
Allt detta var under samma natt. Visdomens gudinna verkar ha hört SWIMs bedjan, men han kan inte veta om han höll sig kvar i sitt sovrum hela natten eller ej...
P.S - SWIM tog totalt 90 mg denna natt, och när han skriver att han måste vänta "en och en halv månad" tills han kan hämta ut det igen bygger han det på personliga principer - 3/4 av hans recept återstår fortfarande att hämta ut.
P.P.S - grovt imponerad över SWIMs reflektionsförmåga trots att han var 'noctad som en flashbackare.