"Well this weekend was ok. I was able to cub out like i wanted thankfully and did go see a movie with my friend Steel. But right now im in a very bad mood, hence why i put my mood as "dark." When my dad got home yesterday he said, "So Luke you're 21 now, have you given any thought to what you're gonna do the rest of your life?" He then started to give me all the B.S. like he usually does; im worried about you, why are you being this way, why are you pushing all of us away, etc. I told him straight up that his and the rest of family's opinions just dont matter to me anymore and then he said that if that's the case then i didnt need to be living under his roof anymore...I've just about had enough of his shit and everyone elses. I'm thinking about quiting school and moving either to Maine to be with my Daddy, or if it could be worked out, live with Stage and his Daddy in Buffalo, because i cant live here anymore. It's either that or try my hardest to find roommates that would be lenient towards me being a babyfur.
If all that wasnt bad enough, i never got a call from my Master yesterday wishing me a happy b-day, and at first it upset me, but now its pissing me off because i think he lied to me when he called me this morning, saying he didnt wish me a happy b-day because he was too busy...Ok even if he was he could've taken 5 minutes to call me up just to say happy birthday, its not that hard. I talked to both Stage and Daddy last night and both of them said he was online and they were talking to him...yeah he was busy alright, too busy talking to his friends to even remember that his other pet had a b-day. I'm starting to see past his ways and until im proven wrong that he didnt lie to me, im not talking to him for awhile. He says he cares for me and all, but im starting to think that he's full of shit...I'm about to snap, everything from my blood family to my furry family has driven me to this point. I 'm starting to get the mentality that i had when i tried to kill myself, but this time the measures that im thinking about taking dont involve my death, nor anyone elses. No one in my blood family are gonna be hurt physically, just mentally, as they already are apparently. Though i would love to stop a mudhole in my dad's ass and walk it dry, i dont think that would solve anything...I need something to ease my troubled mind, i dont like to feel this way, i hate feeling this way, i wanna be happy."