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LOE2
Hon förstår nu säkert att det oerhörda verkligen har hänt. Hon anade nog detta från första början men värjde sig mot insikten.
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henkess
Men tvivlar på att hans fru var med. Ser snarare ut som en ensam galnings verk, tveksamt att han ville ta med hans fru på det här. Riskerna blir betydligt större dessutom, så hon var nog inte med på det. Däremot så vet hon nog mer än hon uppgett i förhör, att hon är en lögnerska vet vi redan.
Detta var nog hans egen "dark dream" men hon kan nog, med facit i hand, lägga ihop en hel del och skulle säkert kunna komplettera med mycket så fler pusselbitar faller på plats. Frågan är om hon vill då det kommer kosta en del gällande den egna personen (skam, personligt nederlag) ihop med fortsatt dåraktigt försvar under häktning där hon snärjt in sig ännu mer. Att sen kräva ersättning indikerar inte på att ha kommit till sans direkt. Hon kommer nog fortsätta leva i förljugenhet.
Med tanke på det sexualsadistiska mordet och hans förmåga till dubbelliv där han duperat sin omgivning så är det intressant att se andra sådana avarter berätta. Ted Bundy gav en del ledtrådar om sitt duala inre där han slets mellan moral och driften som pockade på mer och mer tills det gick överstyr. Han erkände väl inte förrän det det var point of no return, dvs dags för avrättning. Det finns inte förhör i världen som fått denna att tala om han inte haft lust själv.
Han är en extremt obehaglig person att ta del av med tanke på hans intellekt och expressiva förmåga. Hans PhD lyser igenom vilket gör det till ännu mer obehaglig läsning och det är lätt att förstå hur han kunde dupera alla.
Han berättar dock i tredje person hela tiden som om det är en slags kurs i psykologi.
Han talar i termer om tilltagande stress och anspänning, att det byggs upp sakta under lång tid - hur det eskalerar och att han är fullt medveten om detta:
"What's happening is that we building up the condition and what may have been a predisposition for violence becomes a disposition.
And as the condition develops and its purposes or its characteristics become more well defined, it begins to demand more of the attention and time of the individual. There's a certain amount of tension, uh, struggle between the normal personality and this, this, uh, psychopatological uh, entity."
" It develops very, very slowly - and the person's aware of it, uh, and essentially, the only steps that are taken are to, uh, initially conceal it and not let it interfere with normal things.
But basically, however, as this condition develops and become more distinct, there's pressure, a sort of contest, as it were.
The tension between the normal individual, uh, normal consciousness of this individual and those demands being submitted to him via this competing.. this condition inside him seems to be competing for more attention. Okay? And it's not, it's not an independent thing. One doesn't switch on and the other doesn't switch off. They're more or less active at the same time. Sometimes one is more active, you know. "
Slutligen kulminerar det hela, når en viss punkt:
".. a point would be reached where we had all this, this reservoir of tension building. Building and building. Finally, inevitably, this force - this entity would make a breakthrough. Maybe not a major breakthrough, but a significant breakthrough would be achieved - where the tension would be too great, the pressure would be to great and the demands an expectations of this entity would reach a point where it could not be controlled. And where the consequences would really be seen for the first time. "
Bundy berättar om när han slutligen tappar kontrollen och han skrider till verket - nåt som han fantiserat kring om och om igen:
" And as he was passing a bar, he saw a woman leaving the bar and walk up a fairly dark side street. (...) But the urge to do something to that person seized him - in a way he'd never been affected before. And it seized him strongly. (...) and when he reached the point where he was almost, uh, driven to do something - there was really no control at this point. "
" And the situation's novel because while he may have toyed around with fantasies before and made several abortive attempts to, uh, act out a fantasy, it never reached a point where actually he was, uh, confronted with harming another individual, or taking possession or abducting or whatever - which really is ultimate, I suppose; one of the ultimate antisocial acts, as it were."
..men bytet smiter. Detta i sin tur triggar honom ännu mer och han blir mer beslutsam att skrida till verket. Han har gått in i en slags ny dimension och börjar mer målmedvetet att leta flickor i sitt närområde. Det blir som ett genombrott; spänningen släpper. Man kan inte låta bli att tänka på Adriana i samband med dessa berättelser...
" And so it reached a point where he.. he'd gotten ahead of this quarry, this girl, and was lying in wait for her, as they say. But before she reached the point where he was concealed, she turned and went into her house!
Okay? And yet the.. the sort of revelation of that experience and the frenzied desire that seized him, uh, really seemed to usher in a new dimension to the, that part of himself that was obsessed with, or otherwise enamored with violency and women and sexual activity - a composite kind of thing. Not terribly well defined, but more well defined as time went on.
This particular incident spurred him to, uh, on succeeding evenings, to uh, hunt this neighborhood, uh, searching (for others)."
" For some reason, this particular - the sight of that woman under those circumstances on that evening and given the condition he was in - sort of signaled a breakthrough. The, the breaking of the tension - making a hole in the dam. "
Han beskriver sen att det inte var varken kvinnohat eller aggressioner som det handlade om utan snarare spänning i jakten - att det eskalerar till en längtan att fullborda/iscensätta fantasin:
".. it was not an overriding emotion or feeling that was present when he would go looking or hunting, or however you would describe it. Let's say it was more of a (long pause)... on most occasions it was a high degree of anticipation, of excitement, of arousal. It was like an adventuristic kind of thing. Perhaps people go out deer hunting or fly fishing have the same feeling when they get up in the morning, you know? But it was that kind of thing - if you're following. "
" How ever with increasing regularity, what was once a just a high state of arousal, of anticipation, became an almost frenzied desire to be, uh... to recieve the kind of gratification that was being sought. And it was just an escalation of the desire to fullfill. "
Han beskriver (likt Rader bl.a.) att det är själva fantasin som är det ultimata och i andra intervjuer med honom framkommer att det handlar om makt, ägande, kontroll:
" He recieved no pleasure of harming or causing pain to the person he attacked. He recieved absolutely no gratification from causing pain and did everything possible, within reason the unreasonableness of the situation - not to torture these individuals, at least physically.
The fantasy that accompanies and generates...the anticipation that preceedes the crime, is always more stimulating than the immediate aftermath of the crime itself."
Ted Bundy: Conversations with a Killer av S Michaud och H Aynesworth