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I'm a servant and this heroin's my king
I'm feelin' like a slave, as I dangle from these puppet strings
I'm just a marionette, I'm starin' at death
As I am carryin' regrets that are just tearin' through my flesh

We're dealin' with a topic we're so careless to neglect
We're dealin' with a dilemma leavin' every parent stressed
I'm so sick and tired though of being sick and tired
But then it finally happened, motivated by desire (by desire)

I hit this point, I wanted to change, enough is enough
My effort's been exhausted, and I'm tired of being stuck
My faith is never blind and my future I barely see
But overnight, was open-minded I had this moment of clarity (moment of clarity)

So it begins and it's essential I believe
'Cause if it worked for you, then it just has to work for me (work for me)
Through all this pain, there's got to be a positive message
I talked about the past, now let's talk about the present (talk about the present)

I'm no longer livin' that way, for me it's a blessin'
But with one bad decision, I am back in that obsession
In '03 was diagnosed with Hepatitis-C
I utilize the bad, it's always been the fuel for drivin' me

And then you ask me, why do I give this my all?
I'm not tryna see "Rest In peace" on my Facebook wall (Facebook wall)
I got clean in '05 and started rappin'
I started touchin' lives, I never thought that this would happen (this would happen)

This shit today, trust me it isn't heroin
It's killin' everybody, and the comments are disparagin' (disparagin')
No-one cares or gives a fuck that I'm clean
For them, another deadly overdose is just somethin' to see

Look, I pay attention to every post that I read
As you were sittin' there judgin' in front of your iPhone screen (iPhone screen)
Talkin' about these dyin' addicts and how they are worthless
And if they put a needle in their arm, then they deserve it

But that's someone's mother, someone's uncle, someone's daughter
And that's someone's aunt, someone's son and someone's father (someone's father)
As I rap, this shit is givin' me chills
And I am speakin' off experience, that's how I know it's real

These ignorant motherfuckers will say it's not a disease
And look, I really don't care, you can believe what you believe
I don't care to argue, I don't gotta give you proof
Listen, I was taught you don't gotta defend the truth

Feel it heavy in my bones now
Feel like everybody goes out
And smiles for the 'gram, yeah, tried but I can't
Prayer in the shape of Prozac
Try to medicate the lows that
Come and meet me in the night time, losing track of my time

Mama said gonna be all right
But mama don't know what it's like in my mind
Mama said that the sun gon' shine
But mama don't know what it's like to want to die

They say keep hangin' on
There ain't shit to hold on to
I used to be strong
After all that I've gone through
I don't feel like myself, and
I think I need help, the people I talk to
Say keep hangin' on
I don't know if I want to

I thought it would be better when I'm older
Celebrating birthdays with the devil
On my shoulder we liked to drink together
But the minute I got sober
You started sayin' things that I've
Had trouble gettin' over
Now I'm just alone and I'm tired
I got twenty feet of rope
But I got nowhere to tie it
To climb out of this hole
Or pull myself any higher
'Cause I'm exhausted and my bones are heavy
Coated with iron
Forged in a fire and moulded with pliers
I know that I'm supposed to be
The one who's givin' hope, i'm a liar
I tried to jump the motor
And exposed all the wires
But all it did was make a spark
It didn't power the tires
It's like I'm standin' on a edge
And I'm scared i wonder: if I slip and fall
Will anyone care? I did my best to fix it
But it can't be repaired and it ain't fair

They say keep hangin' on
There ain't shit to hold on to
I used to be strong
After all that I've gone through
I don't feel like myself, and
I think I need help, the people I talk to
Say keep hangin' on
I don't know if I want to

I feel like I've been livin' on the dark side
I know it's hard to tell
But I've been goin' through a hard time
Fightin' in a blindfold with my
Ankles and my arms tied
I'm runnin' outta places where the
Bruises and the scars hide
Honestly, I'm angry and exhausted
I'm appalled at what the therapy
And medicine have cost
And I'm still tortured by the feelings that
They told me they could cure
I'm runnin' outta options, that's for sure
I don't want the sympathy or sorries
I'm not in it for the glory
Bein' popular is boring
I just wanna tell my story
All that sappy shit is corny
I won't make it 'til I'm forty
With the way that I've been feelin'
I might go before the morning
And when I leave, I will not reappear
No encore even if you stay
To scream and cheer
I just hope I help you see it clear
'Cause now we're here

They say keep hangin' on
There ain't shit to hold on to
I used to be strong
After all that I've gone through
I don't feel like myself, and
I think I need help, the people I talk to
Say keep hangin' on
I don't know if I want to

When I wake up / motivation
Doesn't give me any sensation
I get so sidetracked from the things
That don't even matter I'm saying
Gotta realize that I'm not gonna
Please every single person in my life
I can be so difficult to deal with
Harm my body just to cope and to pass time
Put my shoes on, walk outside and
Got my fake face on, I'm alright then
Go about my day till the pain kicks in
When I'm home I'll be drowning in some bourbon
I'm sorry, let you down
Made a promise can't keep then I relapse
Self loathing, no denying
I'm my own worst enemy, I hate that

I have to tell myself won't always be this way
I take substances so I can numb the pain
I've done things that I'm not proud of, I admit
I wish I had amnesia so I could forget

Imagine if I become
The person that I dreamt of once
I'd be happy and you would too
I'm not a mistake, I promise you

One, two, three

Somebody save me, me from myself
I've spent so long living in Hell
They say my lifestyle is bad for my health
It's the only thing that seems to help

All of this drinkin' and smokin' is hopeless
But feel like it's all that I need
Somethin' inside of me's broken
I hold on to anything that sets me free

I'm a lost cause
Baby, don't waste your time on me
I'm so damaged beyond repair
Life has shattered my hopes and my dreams

I'm a lost cause
Baby, don't waste your time on me
I'm so damaged beyond repair
Life has shattered my hopes and my dreams

What if the night sky was missin' the moon?
There were no shootin' stars to use wishin' on you
And all of my sorrows, I'd just wash them down
It's the only peace, I've ever found

All of this drinkin' and smokin' is hopeless
But feel like it's all that I need
Somethin' inside of me's broken
I hold on to anything that sets me free