Oavsiktligt mycket MDMA på oskuldsturen. (OBS ENGELSKA).

Substance: MDMA

Doseage: 0.7 g

Age: 18- 25

Sex: Male

weight: 70- 85 kg

9:00 (The flat)

We started out the night in the suit jackets flat, just chilling, some of the people was drinking beer, some wear smoking some weed, but I didn't have anything with me and was way too nervous to care anyway. We talked some bullshit, then blackmans girlfriend didn't want to go so we left for the station by ourselves. I was still getting kind of worried and didn't really know what to expect. I was hiding it pretty well though so I think it didn't bring down the atmosphere. we jumped to controls and headed for the city. I talked philosophy with blackman all the way to the big station where we took off and headed for a small quaint pub just around the corner we were supposed to queue. I got the stuff from suit jacket (0.5 g) and while going in another friend, Shaun, gave me another bag, I thought this was mine so I took it and payed.

11:00 (Pub)

At the pub we walked in and sat around a table in a corner, it had a nice atmosphere and I calmed down bit for bit. I went to the bathroom going into the booth and made two hits, a little less in the one I would take. I went back to the corner and bought a pale ale, we finished the beers, talked a little about how it, the party, had been the other years and moved on out.

11:30 (outside the club)

In the queue all the nervousness was almost gone. I took the hit together with suit jacket. By now the nervousness had ceased as I reasoned there were no turning back now. We queued for a bit, walked inside, I almost didn't get in as my name wasn't on the list, but as I had the photo on my phone I think the guard realized it was okay and didn't want to ruin the mood.

12:00 (inside the club)

Inside we received a magic bean, white and sparkling red, that would be used to gain access to the magic door on the inside. I left my hoodie at the wardrobe and went inside with the rest of the gang. We stood in the queue, I was just dancing, trying to get into the mode. the atmosphere was nothing special yet, a little bit more mental than a regular night out but the same kind of feeling. I finally arrived at the "Magic Door" where we would be transformed into the beings and step into the magical world. The captain, which guarded the door, was a little bit pedo-y welcomed us in and took the bean. I got a black girl as my make up maid and we chatted a little bit about what I was up to, and how I wanted my makeup. I didn't know, I just told her that she had free hands. In the end I got something like a green sparkly leaf on both of my cheeks. we finished the trip by going down a magical slide, like that, we were now part of the party.

12:30 (dancing area)

In the main room, they had a booth for the dj's that were playing deep house, nothing special but a really nice drive. Everyone else was saying that theirs had begun to kick in, so I was becomming sort of impatient with this whole thing. We danced for a bit and it was fun but I really felt like I wouldn't be able to stand 6 more hours.

12:45 (smoking area)

I went to the bathroom, Bajamaja, and locked it behind me. I took out my bag and rolled half in toilet paper and took it, rolled half in ciggarette paper and kept it. I walked around for a bit, just talking and doing nothing in general. About ten minutes after that I went to the gang and asked if I should take another hit as I hadn't begun to feel anything, suit jacked said sure, so I took it. Just moment after he asked if I could give him his share, I stared and asked what he was saying, I had taken his share. They all stared and we worked out that I had taken from 0.6 to 0.7 grams, which is a lot for a virgin, I was in for a weird and wonderful ride.

01:00 (dancing area)

We were dancing at the ramp, when I began to hear how all the voices got louder, a lively setting, in contrast to a claustrophobic feeling. I was getting more and more into the music and just felt the urge to share me and my knowledge, stories and laughs with everyone else. While dancing I got this primal feeling I wanted to do something unexpected, I felt so primal, like Tarzan, so I took my t- shirt and ripped it halfways, exposing my hairy breast to the masses, it was fun, but I think people were wondering what I was thinking. I don't think I realised how far gone I had come. If I saw someone with a wonderful facepaint I told them how beautiful they were, with real sincerity, and they responded happilly in most cases, in the cases they didn't want me there I understood but didn't really get any anxious feeling but just walked away and continued doing my bussiness.

01:10 (smoking area)

we went outside to the smoking area. I was mesmericed by all the decoration, there were dinosaurs (stegosaurus and a velociraptor) and a huge ass bridge just to the side. I felt like going out in space and discovering the earth. I had all these thoughts that I had to share, all the while feeling just so happy and energetic. I talked to the gang and they could see I was cloud 9 by now. Ted was euphoric as well, so I talked to him and it felt so good, I wanted to explain how I felt, but it was like trying to type something, your mouth just couldn't keep up with all of your thoughts that needed to be heard. He clearly noticed so I splurted out how it felt like. How I had rainbows in my stomach, he was going "yeah yeah?!" quickly, getting my pumped, I wanted to go to space and then burrow me underground and they were all so beautiful. Josh introduced us to some girls and somehow I got to know that a girl named hannah could speak Japanese, I was so excited and so was she.

01:30 (dancing area)

I danced and made out and spoke japanese to hannah, having a really good time. I just felt so at home speaking japanese, it was like it took away and facilitated discussion. She had lived in Japan for a year as her father was an expat. She had this amazing pearl jewelry that was connected to her forehead which made her forehead split into patterns. after saying goodbye I went out again, I had lost the other people but I knew they were always around. I was simply happy, for now everyone was a friend.

02.00 (smoking area)

There was this woman standing along with other people just chatting, but she was the most beautiful creature I have ever seen. She was wearing this red and blue shirt which hanged down, making her look like some goddess in a tunica. This was further accentuated by the fact that she had really short blond hair in a kind of fancy headband, that had net hanging down before the eyes. I just had to explain to here that she was so beautiful. I walked up to here and just said this, and all the continuation is a paraphrasing of the conversation:
-You look like a goddess in that tunica.
-Thank you! I didn't really know if it would work out.
-It really does, you are just shining. I don't think I've ever seen anyone like this in my life.
-Look at this guy, I want what he's having. Are you on md?
-How can you tell?
-You can see it in your eyes, darling!
-yeah, this is my first time.
-Awwh, the virginity is always the best.
I moved towards her and asked if I could just hold her, she just accepted and we embraced each other, it felt like a lifetime, I felt in love, infatuated, I wanted this woman to take care of me and live with me for the rest of our lives, making love as often as possible. she had the most sensual voice, a little hoarse but so feminine, making her seem like a mother figure, or an authority. She could do anything to me. She wasn't really thin. But her skin was so smooth and she wasn't fat as it was evenly over her body, just making her extremely soft but firm. Her breases wasn't big, but they were perfect. she was in her upper twenties. You could tell she knew exactly what I needed, probably had lots of experience with raves and party drugs.
I start this conversation:
- You know, I would worship you, just kiss you everywhere.
- Oh, baby, don't stop now.
I felt so encouraged and happy. That this woman would listen to me and not stray away, I just wanted her to realize what a wonderful human being she was, transcending everything.
- I would just take you away, worship you, we could start our new life of love somewhere completely else. We could have a house on the beach and kids and...
-Ok, now you went to far; she said, jokingly irritated.
I quickly mended that
- I would do anything for you, and make you feel like a real woman.
she just grinned and looked at me in the most sensual way
I asked her if I could kiss her. We started to make out. Her mouth tasted fresh and her tongue was really firm, she swirled it around, with technical precission.
- you are such a good kisser; I said. I was in heaven.
She smiled and I grabbed her ass. She stroked my groin slowly with her own.
I don't really remember what the rest of the conversation was about, but I wanted to make her mine and make love with her. She had to go and finnish her shift but said that might come true if I found her after the shift. She might have been taking the piss, but it could as well have been true.

I begun talking to this other girl in the group, she was kind of cute and I hoped I could kiss her. I just thought that patterns and faces in particular was so wonderful, my usual sense of beauty had broken down and everyone was beautiful in their own way. Anyway, the kissing didn't really have anything to do with sex per se. Usually kissing is kind of the road that is supposed to lead to sex (well kind of), but I was just in the mood to share this moment with someone, just being intimate and be close. Feeling good. I guess she felt it so she introduced me to her boyfriend, I didn't really mind. He had an Alladin Sane facepaint but blue and a shirt with a t- shirt under. I just looked at him and told him he looked like Bowie. He was really happy I said that and we sung some songs together, the hits.

02:30 (dancefloor)

I saw a group of people talking so I approached them. I had newly learned that the Tapir has a penis that can be used as an extra arm, so I told them, I thought it was amazing (Amazing and beautiful was by far my most used words). They laughed and I went dancing with this girl named Lucy. I thought she looked really sexy and cute, she had pearls in her face and a sticker with an indian jewelry on her forehead. I told her she looked beautiful and continued doing so throughout the night. We went dancing. We kissed for a bit and danced. I spent probably 2 hours with her in the club so it was kind of blurry. We went and bought drinks, I payed for both, thinking I just wanted people to be happy. When she gave me a fiver for hers I was just in awe, like it was the nicest thing anyone could do for me. I told her that it was such a nice gesture. I told her some more facts and she laughed and laughed I was just happy to be able make someone else feel good, it was like I didn't have any intentions behind it, everything I did was a goal in itself. Some guy came up to us and poured a whole vial of green glitter on my hair and smeared it in my face, it was so beautiful, the glitter got stuck in my eyelashes so my sight was glittery at the top wherever I looked. We went out and smoked, her friend was feeling sick (the same girl I spoke to together with the bowie guy, I think). They went out through the fence. I told her about my cat, both of them, and how sad I'd been when she died. Totally went home. She called me "oh, you poor thing!". We talked some more and out of nowhere I said that I probably have some sadist tendencies when it comes to sex, I think she got the hint as she asked me if I wanted to go somewhere, to which I said yes.

03:20 (outside the club)

We went out through the main door, I remember feeling sad as I thought I had lost my cap, but didn't dwell on it for long. We went just around the corner and found an inlet in the building for transport, with a couple of containers. We started making out. I called her a slut (I thought she liked that as she responded to my statement earlier!). She said, she wasn't really into that, it was fine, we made out anyway, and the feeling just creeped through my body, I wanter her so bad, she looked so god, I called her a siren, thinking she would lead me astray. I touched her body and we bantered a bit, I pulled down my pants and she gave me a blowjob, she was really good, I managed to get at least a half erection. We thought it was a little bit to open so I spotted a small confinement between the wall and a container so we walked in there. I pulled down her pants and looked what I got, She had a nice big but and cute panties, not thong but going there, with small hearts on and laces. I told her, she just laughed a bit. I took them of as well and positioned her against the wall, doggy- style. She asked for a condom which I took up, i ripped the package and took it out. I had somewhat of an erection but not really full on. I really tried to get it up but couldn't. Someone had told that it's not gonna work, in the club before so I just sat down and we talked. sometimes I talked too much, or too much bullshit so she just shut my lips with her fingers and we kissed. she had a ciggarette I wanted to smoke so I tried to call all of the guys but no one answered, at last I got phil to answer, and he said they were in the smoking area, we went there.

04:00 (smoking area)

We met my friends and smoked, phil had my hat and I was just so happy that it was still here! talking some more, we were thinking about going to the after party, but decided to take a taxi to her place instead. We asked the taxi guys for the fares, to which they said £20. way too much for us so we decided to take the bus instead. Halfways there we found a cab driver who gave us a price of £7 which we took. At her house she forgot the keys, so she had to call her mom. Awkward as her family seemed a little bit dysfunctional, she said her dad would probably kick me out if he found out. we walked up the stairs, I was a little bit confused, the M had started to go down. She was only living at home temporarilly, going to back to her own university in a couple of days, so we slept in her sisters room. She wanted to sleep. I couldn't so I talked for a bit more, thanking her for taking care of me and making my night wonderful. I said she looked beautiful. She said that it was just the M talking and that I wouldn't think so in the morning. I felt so sad, really, it took me down. I mean, no matter I would never do something like that, she seemed a little bit broken. we slept.

12:00- 18.00 (Her room)

I woke up and looked at her, she still loked good, maybe not super good but still pretty. I thought about what she had said. That was not a nice feeling, felt really bad for her, just imagining how her life probably was like. we got up and talked a bit. I wanted to snuggle, I was just feeling really romantic and nice and wanted sensual touch. She asked me if I wanted breakfast, I just thought that was really nice. She went down and gave me toasts and juice, the juice was amazing, it tasted really sweet and I told her this must be Tropicana, just really random. Toasts got down. throughout the day we just grinded we couldn't have sex and I was fine with that, even though I really wanted to, I told her more stories, and started to notice the flaws more and more throughout the day, but didn't really care, she was still nice and looked pretty. She also had a massive rack. she gave me blowjob to alleviate the pain (I was getting blueballed as fuck). I couldn't come and didn't want to dirty the bed anyway. it was nice, later she took me to the station and got me home. Before we left she saw she had my number in her phone, I presume I had hears in mine. She said I should text her when I got home just to make sure I wasn't raped, I assured her I would. She said, you don't have to if you don't want, it's fine. It really hurt, not for my part, but thinking what she felt while saying that. I don't know, she went to a so- so uni in a city quite off doing lit. Wanted to become a nurse. I think she had a pretty hard life sometimes (don't know, presuming), she said she'd done coke the first time when she was fifteen and started drinking around ten. Wasn't feeling patronising just kind of sad. Guess that's England.

Evaluation:
This was totally the best night of my life. It might have to with my personality really going well with the drug and that the surroundings were free, people didn't care and I bet a large number of the people in the club was on something as well. This being my first forage into part drugs might also have to do with it!
5/5 gold stars

Ursäkta om det är lite rörigt med stavfel, har försökt att organisera det så att man kan hålla en hyfsad röd tråd!

En enda fråga dyker upp så här innan jag ens har läst den.. Varför en tripprapport på engelska?

Jag studerar i England och byter ibland språk utan anledning, kom på att jag borde posta den på fb efter att jag var klar.

Det var lite rörigt i början, men efter ett tag tycker jag att du fick ett riktigt bra flow. Är du säker på att du fick i dig så mycket som 0.7g? Vid sådana doser borde du knappt kunna stå upp vad jag har förstått, själv skulle jag aldrig ta över 250mg.

Hade du inte tjejens nummer så du kunde höra av dig eller? Fick intrycket av att du antog att du hade det men att så inte var fallet, men sedan ingen bekräftelse på det.

Du skriver väldigt levande, jag får intrycket av att du är väldigt empatisk även i nyktert tillstånd. Om inte så är du bara duktig på att skriva med inlevelse!

Hej! Det som jag fick var uppdelat så att varje påse var 0.5 g, du tror inte det kan ha att göra med hur mycket MDMA som faktiskt fanns rent i varje påse? För jag uppskattar bara från hur mycket jag tog, men tog en påse plus en liten till.

Jo, tjejens nummer fixade sig, men min gudinna ser jag nog aldrig igen (Eller på nästa om jag har tur). Är inte ens säker om jag vill, tror att det är lite som att vara förälskad i en seriefigur, hon kanske är baserad på någon i verkligheten men finns nog mest i min hjärna.

Och tack för komplimangen om min text! Jag skulle väll säga att jag är rätt empatisk, i alla fall har jag på senare år insett hur tur jag har haft det i livet jämfört med andra och att döma är skit, när man inte kan sätta sig in och inse hur vissa faktiskt lever. Kom ihåg att jag pratade om The human condition och hur jag ibland kan vakna upp på morgonen, hos mina kompisar eller annanstans. Jag vet att jag borde vara nöjd för jag har allt som behövs för att vara glad, men ändå sjunka ner i en djup ensamhet, som att vara den sista människan kvar. Vi har väl alla varit där. Men på MDMA var det mer av en observation, jag kunde säga "Fan, har ni tänkt på det här, det suger" Men utan att riktigt känna obehaget av känslan, väldigt objektivt bara få ur mig grejer.

Svenskt forum så skriv på svenska. Orka läsa. 0/5.

Orka gå in på en tråd som varnar för en text på engelska och klaga.

lol

5/5

Förutsatt att det var kristaller och inte pulver du fick så lär det ha varit enbart MDMA och inte bankat med massa skit.

Tror nästan det är bäst att inte träffa din gudinna igen, du lär bli besviken om du träffar henne i nyktert tillstånd. Har själv upplevt den där MDMA-förälskelsen ett antal gånger och sedan haft världens ångest dagen efter, gått från att tycka att en tjej är vackrast i världen till att tycka hon är skitful dagen efter.

MDMA är skitbra för att kunna analysera saker man mår dåligt av i vanliga fall utan de negativa känslorna. Just därför är det så bra för att bearbeta PTSD och depressioner!

Nej, men det var pulver! Så det var nog därför det blev lite fel. Så vi kan nog förutsätta att det inte är 100 % rent.

Precis, när jag trippade så hade jag inga riktiga ramar att förhålla sig till, ens standarder böjs typ ur form och man finner saker fina just för att de bara existerar, typ. Tror aldrig jag kommer se henne igen. Egentligen var det nog själva grejen att hon var klädd som hon var som fick hjärnan att gå in på det spåret.

Bra skrivet, kändes ett tag som jag själv fick ett litet lyckorus. Vilken klubb i England, antar att det var i London? 5/5